We all have a story. In 2,000 characters, here's mine.
My parents did the best they could. Imagine trying to get it perfect when you’re in your twenties and early thirties. It just doesn’t happen. None of us have enough experience at that age to be perfect parents. So they did the best they could. It wasn’t exactly what I needed, but it was the best they could do. I get that now.
Mental illness and substance abuse runs rampant on my father’s side, and I didn’t escape it. I got hit with depression in my early teens and have battled it off and on my entire life. I got to very low places, where I thought ending my life was the only solution. I felt stuck, and I think that is the essence of deep depression: a feeling of excruciating emptiness and a certainty that it will never go away.
I had a daughter when I was nineteen years old and a son when I was twenty-six. I’ve been married. I’ve been divorced. I’ve had people close to me die. I struggled with substance abuse. I got sober.
When I was fifteen years old, I met a guy on the beach who taught me about hypnosis and the human psyche. I was introduced to a new world that night. I became a student of psychology and spirituality. I started reading spiritual literature and religious texts. I attended different religious groups and learned about different paths to God.
I practiced a certain faith for a while. I grew resentful and completely rejected that faith. I was mad at God for a long time. I hated the word ‘God’ for a while. Slowly, I learned again the many ways to the Source. I realized ‘God’ is one of the many names. I slowly, so very slowly, regained my trust and faith in the Universal energy, the Source, God.
I forgave the people who hurt me. I learned to practice spiritual principles. I learned how to walk through this world with peace. I started teaching others how to do it too. The more I help others, the more peace I receive.
Now, I choose to spread this message of spirit. The message is that there is no one right way to worship. There is no one right way to connect with your God. There may be obstacles blocking you from experiencing the full potential of spirit and peace available to you. I want to help you identify those obstacles, move past them, and start receiving the peace that is meant for you.
I experienced pain, as we all do in one way or another. I learned to move past it. Is my life perfect? No way. But I have tools that give me a certain level of peace, and that keeps me generally content. Now I get to teach other people how to use those tools too.
Contact me if you want to learn about meditation and how to get closer to your idea of a higher power.